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Dear Mrs. Carly Bruton,

          This is a letter that, I would like to assure you, I wrote of my own choosing, merit, and desire. This however is not a complete apology, though I can assure you I am more than sorry. Apologies along with other matters of the same nature are best addressed, especially in this case, face to face and in person.  And if you would allow it to be so, I would most like to handle this matter in its rightful nature. I understand that I have given you more than enough reason to doubt my truthfulness in the past, but it is a fault that I only intend to make up for in the future, if you would be so kind to give me the opportunity. What I mean by that is that I am sorry and I am willing to do whatever I can to prove it to you.

          Over the past few weeks, things have gone downhill. I will be the first one to agree with that and I will be the first one to take the accountability for it. To say that Emily and I have made wrong choices would be an understatement. But amidst it all Emily and I have remained and will remain to be best friends. I do not and will never believe that I am a bad influence on her. Emily is an incredibly strong and willful person, something that I’m sure you know firsthand, and she is more than capable of making her own decisions. In the past Emily and I have made a number of decisions, many of which have been wrong, but they’re decisions that we have made each on our own time and for our own reasons. I have not smoked weed with Emily for months and I did not smoke weed with Emily in Tennessee.  The only time I even know of Emily doing anything of the sort in the last months is with someone else other than me. Up until this point I have lied and said that Emily smoked with me in Tennessee, in attempt to prevent a third party from facing incrimination. But it is a decision that is jeopardizing mine and Emily’s friend ship and I am no longer agreeing to play along. If Emily wishes to tell you who then it is her choice, but I am sick of paying the price for someone else’s doings. For a while Emily had done an excellent job of preserving the trust between you and her I and I was not going to be one to question that. If ever a situation arrived I always urged her to do what the two of you would want her to do and consider the consequences of her actions. If for a second I thought that my relationship with Emily was detrimental then I would certainly be the first to end it. 
               
         Another matter I would like to address is my disrespect towards you and Emily’s father, particularly concerning what was said on gills face book profile. I understood that there was another side to the story for it would be stupid to assume there wasn’t. But the “story” behind it all really is of no matter. Gill could have said that his parents were angels and I still would have said what I did. I was looking for a way to vent my anger but I understand that lying and disrespect was not the way to do it. You see, after my parents took me out of school everything was going okay. The only thing that was wrong was that I wasn’t able to see my best friend which something that I blamed on you. But I took some time, and put myself in your shoes. If I was a mother and my daughter was putting her studies and lifestyle in danger and I, even for an instant, thought that a friend of hers was the cause then I would not hesitate to keep the two apart. But what I’m trying to tell you is that that is not case at all.

           I love Emily with what is only second to you and her dads love and as cheesy at it sounds, she really is my best friend. From now on our friendship will be a positive one. To disobey and disrespect both you and my parents is something that is simply immature. As of late I’ve had my sights set on attending the governors’ school and I intend to let nothing get in my way. Especially something as fugaciously stupid as what I’ve done in the past. With the exception of a B in geometry that is soon to be brought up, I’m making straight A’s in school and am working on making things right at home. Words can only say so much but things have changed for the better and I am willing to prove through actions to both you and my own parents, that I am more than capable of doing what’s right for both Emily and myself. I pray that you will hear me out and will be willing to accept my apology in person,

                                                                                                Sincerely,